Dear Caleb,

Yesterday you had your 4 month shots. I can’t believe that I have only been your mom for 4 months. It feels like a lifetime already. You make it so easy to be a mom, to be your mom. I cuddled with you most of the afternoon while you slept because I knew you needed it. I knew that you needed the warmth and safety of mom’s arms. Yes, I had to take leave without pay from work but it was worth it. You’re only going to be this small once.

You slept all day and into the evening. Even though I knew that I should wake you, I let you sleep. I knew that your little body needed the rest, even if it meant that we would be up all night. Sure enough, at midnight, you woke, ready to start your day. It made for a long day at work only having 3 hours of sleep, but how could I be upset at you? All you wanted to do was “talk” to me last night, to play with your toy, to share your happiness. Every time I looked over, your brown eyes looked right back at me. You would smile, a smile that filled my heart with joy. I know that you don’t understand the concept of love yet but you know that I am your person, your protector, your provider. I am your world.

But it won’t always be like this. As you grow bigger, as your world grows bigger, you won’t look at me the same. Sure, I’ll always be your mom and you’ll always love me, but things will change. Someone else will come into your life and I want that for you… one day… That’s why I had no problem staying home with you yesterday. I know our time together is short.

I’ve already watched you grow so much since you were born – cooing, reaching for things, holding your head up, interacting with others, TEETHING – it has been so amazing. I can’t wait to see where this journey continues to take us.

With love,

Mom

Happy 2018!

2017 was certainly a stellar year for my boyfriend and I. We found out that I was expecting a little one, turned 30 years old, and we welcomed our Lil Bean into this world. Even though my business didn’t make an appearance at many in-person events, I had more online sales than in previous years.

I fully believe that 2018 will be even better. I plan to continue growing my business and I have a super awesome project that I’ve been working on the past few months launching this March.  I’ll get to watch Caleb develop in so many ways. My boyfriend and I will be one step closer to achieving our goals (the homestead).

I stopped making New Year’s resolutions years ago. If there was a change that I wanted to make, I would go ahead and implement that change. I didn’t want to have to wait until a new year rolled around. That being said, I have decided to try Veganuary. Veganuary challenges you to go vegan for 31 days (the month of January) in an attempt to raise awareness about animal suffering and to show the impact of veganism on your health.

We already have cut down on meat consumption in our household (and rely mostly on what Robb has hunted instead of purchasing meat from the supermarket) but I would like to make it so we one day only consume what we produce ourselves.

I don’t plan on ever going 100% vegan as I don’t see an issue with using the infertile eggs from our own chickens but I can see us adopting even more of a plant-based diet for humane and health reasons. I didn’t start Veganuary today as I didn’t want to waste leftovers but plan to make an honest effort of it and look forward to experimenting in the kitchen.

Have you ever thought about adopting a plant-based diet?

Today I rolled out of bed as a 30-year old. Literally, rolled. Robb laughs at me because I usually need a little momentum to get myself out of bed now, so I have to kick my legs or I’ll swing them over the edge of the bed and slide. Once I get bigger and start needing help, I know that he’ll be right there to pull me up.

So yeah. I rolled out of bed as a 30-year old, 31 weeks pregnant. I’ve been so fortunate to have the life that I have. I know that every life is filled with its ups and downs but I’m blessed that as of today, I have had so many more ups than anything else. I can only hope that with all the changes that are coming soon, the ups keep on coming.

How could I resist a 30th birthday bump picture – even if it’s a dreary day and the lighting is off?

My mom called as I was fixing myself breakfast. For as long as I can remember, she’s played this special birthday song for me from “Captain Zoom”. We both know all the words (and for the most part, it’s the first words that pop into my bed come the morning of October 12th). She purchased it as a cassette many, many years ago but as cassette players started to fade away, she started to panic about finding a way to play it so I surprised her one year with a CD.

I love traditions. We don’t have very many in our family really, other than “Captain Zoom” and my mom giving us pajamas or something similar on Christmas Eve. But all it takes to start a tradition is for someone to make that first move. With Lil Bean joining us, I look forward to starting even more traditions.

What are some of your favorite family traditions?

Update:

I thought I would give a quick update on some of the awesome things I received for my birthday.

Check out these goodies from my mom – she knows me so well! I love the little onsies and the “Beware the Hen Poo” sign is to replace one I lost earlier in the year. It came all the way from Ireland! I’ve been looking forward to reading “The Cooking Gene” by Michael Twitty. What is really neat is that the jar of pink rocks is actually rose quartz that mom found during their mountain camping trip.

What’s even neater is that rose quartz is a good stone to take to the hospital to place near the baby/mother during the birthing process to promote bonding!

Oops. I forgot to post my 30 week update last week. That’s okay. This will be a short post!

My mom’s dog, Cody, stayed with us recently so we took the dogs down to the pond to enjoy the gorgeous fall day. It was great exercise for all of us. I’ve been trying to make it a habit to walk more, even if it’s just a little bit, because I have heard that it will make the rest of my pregnancy (and hopefully labor) go by a bit easier.

Fingers crossed.

Robb and I took a short trip down to Edenton last Saturday. I wanted to stop to the farmer’s market to say hello to some of my fellow sellers and to show off my baby bump since I haven’t seen them at all this market season. I decided early on in my pregnancy to cut down on any vendor events and shows this year to give my body the opportunity to rest on the weekends.

I also wanted to snag a couple of pictures of myself at the waterfront. 🙂

30 Weeks | And I STILL can get up and down by myself!

I also had my 30 week doctor’s appointment last week. Everything went well. Lil Bean’s heart-rate had slowed but that seems to be normal for the third trimester. I hadn’t gained any weight since my previous appointment – two week’s prior – but that didn’t seem to alarm my doctor as I told her that I have made some diet changes. My glucose test was a little on the high side so I’ve cut out a lot of the sugary items that I usually consume. It made grocery shopping yesterday take forever as I took the time to read the labels on any processed items I purchased to see how much sugar the items contained.

Lil Bean has still been nice and active though and he is measuring right where he needs to be. My blood pressure checked out great and I am so thankful that I have been having a moderately healthy pregnancy.

Another Northeastern NC Craft Workshop has come and gone! I love attending this yearly workshop. Since this is my 4th year attending, I’ve come to expect certain individuals to appear there each year. One of those individuals did not attend yesterday but I’m hoping that everything is alright with her and she just decided to attend today.

My chosen course this year was Embroidery taught by a lovely woman by the name of Glenda (her husband teaches the decoy carving class) from Virginia Beach. She was full of knowledge and was a great instructor.

She had already traced our patterns and chosen the colors for our “masterpieces” which left us with the hard job of piecing it all together. We learned several stitches – Lazy Daisy (my least favorite), the French Knot (which I didn’t like at first but came to love), the Back Stitch, the Satin Stitch, and there may have been another one.

Our prepaid lunch was provided by the delicious Golden Skillet over in Plymouth, with choices of salad, chicken and pastry, and fried chicken. We were also able to purchase cookies – which I definitely took advantage of.

So this is the outcome of my 6 or so hours of work. Upon wetting it, the blue pattern should fade. You can certainly see where I struggled (the flowers) and how I improved on the french knot as I went. It’s funny – my shoulder was getting sore by the end of the day!

I’m undecided what I will do with this – I’m thinking of bringing out my granny’s vintage sewing machine and maybe filling it with lavender and turning it into a sachet of sorts. I discovered that I enjoy embroidery and am already daydreaming of my next project.

It’s great getting to try out skills that I might not normally get to try. I’m crossing my fingers that maybe next year I will be able to take two days off from work to try out one of the two day courses!